Broken

For some, this weekend was one for the books.

 

I understand broken.  Once something is broken (i.e., a heart, a promise, a truth, an object, a body part...etc.), it is never the same again.  Ever.  No words, no actions, no geographical location, no glue, no bandages, can ever fully mend broken.  I have found the passage of time to be the most help.

 

It is the between time...the time from the point of breaking to the other time of the point of healing that is so unbearable.  It is when we are on the healed side of the broken that reason begins to rally, and life continues onward.

 

We try to say we understand.  We try to be the shoulder.  We say we'll be praying.  We offer medications for the pain.  However, these are all stop-gap measures.  They do not assuage the grief...the ripping of the soul...the rending of spirit....the tearing of bone.  Bones mend over time.  Broken hearts, however, seem to never heal.

 

No matter how much we try to let something go...forgive...forget..."get busy"...go away...that brokenness is always with us.  Frank tells me it is just as bad for guys...they just deal with it differently. I wonder, as obviously, I am not a guy.  To me, it seems like they skip away, deflecting the pain.  It seems, to me, like they get off easy.  But, I trust Frank, so it must be true.  So, for guys, it must be a severe internal shredding of heart, mind, soul, and spirit that is all the more extreme when they cannot express it, like we females can do so well.

 

But, no matter how badly the other party feels...you are still the one who is enduring, though not well, the never ending agony of heartbreak.  And, it doesn't matter to you if the person who broke your heart feels badly too.  It won't undo what was done.  It offers no relief to know the one who did the breaking is hurting as badly as you!  Sometimes you want to scream, "go away and let me get on with this business of grieving!"  You really don't care that anyone cares or "understands" what you are going through.  Because you are going through it RIGHT NOW.

 

Some of us have been there.  We've been the one left.  We've been the one lied to.  We've been the one who's heart has been broken.  We've bore the broken appendage.  And, because it truly hurts beyond description, in a word, it sucks.  Just when you think you've cried your last tear...that lump forms in your throat and the flood gates reopen and buckets of tears flow.  Sometimes, you just can't help it.  And, the grief is so consuming.  It SEEMS like you'll never be able to think about anything but THIS thing ever again!

 

Bottom line, there is not one thing anyone can say or do to help.  But we will still try.

 

It is timely this Planet Wisdom devotional arrived in my inbox today.  God does that.  And, though it is trite to say, it is still Truth to say God allows all things for a reason.  This HAS to be the hope we cling to...even when all else seems for naught.

 

If you are hurting today, I'm sorry.  If your heart has been smashed into a bazillion microscopic pieces, I'm sorry.  I know it doesn't help but, I'm deeply sorry.

 

And, I love you & will be praying for you.

-M

PlanetWisdom.com Devotionals

Your Message Here Posted: 13 Dec 2008 01:37 PM CST "All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation." (2 Corinthians 5:18-19) Some form of the word reconcile shows up four times in these two verses. It must be an important word. It means to take something that is out of balance or broken or disconnected and make it work or put it together or fix it. Let's ask the standard journalism questions about these verses. Who? God did the reconciling; not us. What? He reconciled us to Himself. Our relationship with Him was out of balance, broken, headed for eternal disaster. He fixed it. When? At the moment we put our trust in Jesus alone for our salvation. Where? Inside our hearts now and in heaven forever. How? Simple substitution: Jesus died in our place to pay for our sin; now God does not count our sins against us. Through faith in Jesus, we are forgiven and clean. What next? Go tell someone. Think: These verses say that Christians still living in the fragile tents of our bodies on this side of heaven have been given the ministry and message of reconciliation. What have you done with that message? What could you do? Pray: Thank God for reconciling you to Himself through Jesus. Ask Him to help you to know how to carry out the "ministry of reconciliation" He has given you. Do: Type the word reconcile into an online dictionary and look at all the different things that word can mean. Visit PlanetWisdom.com for more great resources!